We have the honor of presenting our first fanfiction by a true fan and great author, DeliverMeFromEve.
When Hermione Jean Granger was 9, her mother, Rose, gave
her a book to read, and it was fiction. Hermione remembered giving her a questioning stare, wondering how on earth the practical Rose Granger ever got the notion to give her a book about silly girls matchmaking and rich men finding wives.
“Emma?” asked Hermione.
“By Jane Austen,” Rose replied.
Hermione’s brows had knotted. She turned the book over in
her hand, reading the underside of the jacket. “This is a romance novel. Jane Austen writes romance novels.” She took umbrage at that.
Rose had just smiled and said, “Read it. All textbook and
no fiction makes Hermione a dull girl.” She had, of course, invented that saying, but Rose Granger would use it many times through the course of Hermione’s life. In the meantime, that would be the first time Rose would use the adage, and it would mark Hermione’s first foray into fiction.
She had opened the book and found a name scribbled at the
front in a calligrapher’s script. “Hermione Jane Granger.”
“Jane?” Hermione asked.
Rose had shrugged. “I thought you’d be a Jane when I first
bought that book for you.” Other newborn babies got golden booties or silver rattles. Hermione Granger got a book. “Your father liked Jean better. No matter. It’s just two letters.”
It had bothered Hermione. She wanted to change that name
to reflect her real one, but her mother hadn’t been fussed, so neither should she, she thought.
Hermione remembered heeding her mother’s advice about
reading the book, and she recalled, rather sheepishly, that she had enjoyed reading Emma exceedingly. When her mother had asked her about it at dinner that night, Hermione replied with a long and technical literary analysis of why Jane Austen had written a masterpiece. Rose had looked mildly disappointed by her daughter’s response.
Hermione had been confused at that. She had thought her
mother would be pleased by her intelligent and well-thought- out insight and opinion. For a long time, Hermione never figured out why.
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Hermione Jean Weasley, 38, found Emma hidden underneath a
pile of books about magical theory and history. Its salmon- colored hardcover was slightly crisp at the edges, but the bindings seemed solid as she picked it out of the box. It opened with a soft crackle, and on its blank first page she saw her name — or what should have been her name.
“Hermione Jane Granger,” she read out loud.
Ron looked up from his own box of thingamajigs
questioningly.
“It’s what my mother had wanted to name me. Dad preferred
Jean, though.”
His eyebrow arched and he went back to work. “I was
thinking about Granger, not Jane. At any rate, you can change ‘em all cleanly with a spell.”
A heavy silence descended upon them, though he continued
to pack her things.
“What for?” Hermione finally asked.
He sniffed. “You’re right, of course. No sense in changing
it now.”
No sense indeed.
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Hermione Jean Granger sat in a quiet coffee shop two days
later, Harry Potter sitting across their small table. He seemed deep in thought as he fiddled restlessly with his hands. His wedding ring glittered in the sunlight as he twisted it.
She looked at her own hand. Her finger now lay bare, with
nothing but a lighter shade of skin to mark what once was there.
“Really, there was no point in him coming,” Hermione said
in as chatty a tone as she could. “The divorce papers were signed and all. Just needed to be notarized, so I suppose he didn’t actually have to be there...”
His gaze met hers, and she knew she could never get a lie
past Harry. He almost always knew what she was thinking, and right now, he probably understood how much it meant for her to have had Ron present at the finalization of their divorce. Not that divorcing Ron Weasley was an occasion to celebrate, but in spite of everything that led to the demise of their marriage, Hermione had hoped that the friendship that had kept them together for twenty years would have meant something, even on a day like this one. She had already lost a husband. She had hoped she would be able to keep her best friend.
“Give him time,” Harry said, giving her hand a soft
squeeze. “You have two children together. He’s not going far.”
She squeezed back. “What if— what if he runs off with our
kids and—“
He shot her a disparaging look.
She shot back with a stubborn frown. “My kids hate me.
They think this divorce is all my fault. Why wouldn’t they think that? I’m the one who’s always uptight. I’m the one who nags everyone in the house. I’m the one who makes Ron feel like— like...they’d gladly run off with their father—“
“Your kids do not hate you. They probably hate the
situation but they don’t hate you, and Ron will not run off with them. Ron could be many kinds of prat, but not that kind.”
Harry was right, of course, but she began to cry anyway,
and Harry, sighing, scraped his chair close to hers so he could comfort her properly. The warmth of his arms around her was reassuring and it felt good to cry.
He gave her his handkerchief. She used it to wipe away her
tears. She fingered the gold and red monogram, HJP.
She strangled a snort. Ginny Potter, the homemaker.
At least she managed to keep her husband, unlike some career women I know...
She smudged the letters with her dark brown eyeliner.
“Sorry,” she muttered.
“Don’t worry about it. Lots more where that came from...”
She nodded, wiping off more tears. “Maybe this is the sort
of thing I should’ve done for Ron. Maybe I should’ve stayed home and embroidered his initials on handkerchiefs and made elegant home-cooked meals and crafted pretty, clever party favors every time we had friends over for dinner...”
Harry’s lips straightened to a line. “Hermione, don’t.”
“I’m just saying,” she went on miserably. “Molly raised
him to expect that kind of thing from a wife, instead he got me. Ginny’s certainly an expert. She’s an Enchanted Homes magazine favorite— and how many kitchens do you have in your house? Three? I can’t even run one properly. No offense to your wife, but she makes me look pretty damn bad!”
He said nothing, and she wondered if she had crossed some
kind of line.
“I’m sorry,” she said half-heartedly. “I didn’t mean to
sound like I hated her. I don’t. I’m just jealous, maybe.”
“Don’t be,” he said, then he blushed, which made Hermione
wonder if there was more to what he had just said.
It occurred to Hermione that she hadn’t seen Ginny in
person for quite some time. Sure, she had read the magazine articles, but it had been a while since Mrs. Potter had invited them for tea or dinner. That might have been on account of the divorce proceedings she and Ron had to deal with in the last few months.
“How is Ginny, by the way?” she asked.
“Alright,” he replied, quickly. Too quickly.
“Good.” She fidgeted uncomfortably with the handkerchief.
“She wants another baby. Did Ron tell you about that?”
“No. Does she, now? Probably missing having children in
the house, what with you sending Lily off to Hogwarts and all.”
“Probably.”
“Does she want a girl or a boy?” “Another girl, maybe. She’s still deciding.”
That sounded odd and Hermione chuckled. “Oh, is she? Has
she set a deadline for this decision, or is she anticipating a future circumstance that may provide her with an answer?”
“She lives for me, our children, the house... she’s
perfect...” His voice trailed.
Hermione eyed him suspiciously as he seemed to get lost in
his own thoughts, but then he was smiling again, and he was asking her if there were still things that needed moving from her house to her parents’, where Hermione would be staying until she could find a new place while her and Ron’s lawyers were selling the one they previously shared.
“Some books,” Hermione replied. “Old ones, but I’d like to
keep them.”
“Come on, then,” he said, helping her to her feet. “I’ll
help you transport them in case Ron isn’t there to help.”
“He won’t be there,” she said quietly.
Harry just nodded as he let her lead the way out of the
shop.
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Ron wasn’t there, and without the children, the house was
depressingly quiet.
Everything was immaculately clean. It was much easier to
keep house when the kids weren’t there to make messes, not that they were horrible at it, just that Hermione got annoyed each time she had to pick up after everyone, resenting the fact that she had to tell Ron to help her do it, rather than have him do it at his own initiative.
“I think you missed a spot right here,” Harry said, wiping
an imaginary speck of dirt off the doorknob with a vigorous rub of his sleeve.
She chuckled. “No teasing. I’m a divorced woman today.
Nothing should be funny.”
He smirked, too sure that he could still make her laugh,
anyway.
They headed up to the attic and there were two boxes of
books yet to be sealed. They weren’t very heavy, and they could very well be levitated to make carrying them easier, but Hermione appreciated the company.
Harry got on his knees and took the sealing tape nearby.
He glanced briefly at the top of the pile. “Is that a fiction book I spy? I didn’t know you read fiction.”
“You’re teasing again. You very well know I read fiction,
Harry. And that happens to be one of my favourites. Emma, by Jane Austen.”
“Jane Austen...oh, now I remember. She’s one of your
favourite authors. Your mother’s, too, if I recall correctly.”
It was amazing how Harry remembered things like that.
“Absolutely correct. That book’s at least 38 years old. Mum gave it to me supposedly on the day I was born.”
“You sure you didn’t come out of her holding it?”
“Haha. Contrary to popular belief, I wasn’t born with a
book stuck up my arse.”
Harry lifted the front cover. “Hermione Jane?”
“Mum thought I’d be a Jane when she bought the book for
me. Dad preferred Jean.”
Harry thought about it. “I like Jane. Jean’s nice, but
Jane seems such a lovely, comforting name.”
Hermione smiled in spite of herself.
They worked together sealing the boxes, and when the boxes
were secure enough, Harry levitated them down the stairs. Shrinking made Apparating with them easier, and when they got to the Grangers’ front porch, he un-shrunk them with a quick wave of his wand.
“Thanks, Harry,” Hermione said. “Care to come inside? I
bet mum misses you. She’s been stocking up on her jars of honey and jams. Some of them have your name on them.”
He grinned. “I’ll come by again soon enough. Right now, I
have to get going. Photo-shoot at home...” His grin waned a bit.
“Enchanted Homes again?”
“Magical Gardens, this time. Same publication, different
name.”
Hermione examined the glazed look in his eyes. “Do it for
Ginny.”
He sighed. “Who else do you think I do it for?” She shrugged. “It means a lot to her.”
He just smiled. He paused, was about to say something, but
seemed to decide against it. “I have to go. Take care, Hermione.”
“You too, Harry.”
He kissed her cheek and walked off, a slight slump in his
shoulders.
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“Look, mum,” Hermione said, plucking the old book from the
top of the pile. “It’s Emma.”
Rose seemed mildly surprised for a bit before she smiled.
“Your first book.” She always called it Hermione’s first book, even if there were many non-fiction books that Hermione had read before it. In Rose’s mind, she gave the book to her daughter on the day Hermione was born, so it would be Hermione’ s first book.
Rose pushed back the hardcover. “Oh, you never changed the
name?”
Hermione smirked. “I suppose I never did.” She waved her
wand and the letters in Jane switched cleanly to spell Jean.
Rose seemed surprised. “I meant— oh, never mind. It’s just
as well.”
Hermione knew what she meant, of course, but Rose was
right. It was all beside the point.
“Was that Harry outside just now?” Rose asked, carefully
opening the book to the first page.
Hermione nodded. “He just helped me haul these. He had to
hurry back to their house to make it to another photo-shoot. Sends you his love.”
“He always does. How are the Potters doing?”
Hermione paused too long. Rose’s eyebrow was arching in
seconds.
“They’re fine,” Hermione said.
Rose didn’t push. She wasn’t a gossip. Hermione liked to
think she wasn’t, either.
“I love Mr. Knightley best,” said Rose as she got further
along in the book. “Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see faults in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them... Possibly the only person in this book with any sense, though the other characters are so charming anyway that I could only love them all for it.”
Hermione gave it a brief thought. “Mr. Knightley? Really?”
“Well, who do you like best, then?”
Hermione shrugged. “Emma, imperfect as she is, has a
rather firm place in my affections. She is so forgivably human and endearingly well-intentioned. I relate to her greatly.”
“Do you? Interesting.”
“You don’t agree?”
“Well, it’s a matter of personal opinion, is what I think.”
“No, tell me what you think. Don’t you think I make a fine
Emma Woodhouse?”
Rose laughed at that. “Why does everyone aspire to be
Emma? Jane Austen would be scandalized. She had no desire to have her readers admiring Emma so. She had, in fact, thought that she made Emma properly unlikable.”
“Never Emma! She’s a dear! So kind, yet so clueless. Don’t
we all feel like we’re Emma?”
Rose shrugged. “Oh, I like Emma exceedingly, but I always
thought of you as a Mr. Knightley...”
“Oh, well, that’s natural, what with my top hat and
breaches.”
“Silly girl, you know what I mean. He is the wisdom and
reason of the vivacious and impulsive Emma. He leads her down the right path. He is her true friend. Anyone should want to be the Mr. Knightleys for the Emmas of the world.”
Hermione laughed. “So you agree that there are indeed many
Emmas?”
“No. I agree that there are Emmas, but I don’t think there
are a lot of them. They are, in fact, a rather rare breed.”
“Indeed. ‘Handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable
home and happy disposition, seeming to unite the best blessings of existence.’ You’re right. They’re rare enough!”
“Seeming is the right word. Many Emmas have convinced
themselves and the rest of the world that they are whom the people around them paint them to be. The Emmas are easily convinced, simply because it seems more comfortable that way. They fancy themselves blessed, but when they have their Mr. Knightleys remind them of their responsibilities, they often rebel, and only realize in the end that Mr. Knightley was the right one all along. A lot of celebrities are Emmas, I’d wager, and not all of them have Mr. Knightleys, the poor dears.”
Hermione could only grin. “It seems to me that I’m nothing
without an Emma, then. Who shall my Emma be? Ron?”
“Well, that would be rather silly, wouldn’t it?” Rose
said, tilting her head thoughtfully. “Ron would be more of a Harriet...don’t you think so? Hanging on to the perfect image that is Emma— relying on her just because she’s convinced herself that she couldn’t get on, on her own. Aspiring for the wrong man once or twice, even?”
Hermione shot her mother a sardonic look. “Thanks for
that. Wrong, am I?”
Rose patted her hand sympathetically. “Dear, you and Ron
just got divorced.”
“Right. So if Ron is Harriet, I assume you’re telling me I haven’t quite found my Emma.”
Rose looked thoughtful again. “I don’t know about that. I
used to fancy Harry being Emma.”
“Oh, he’ll look smashing in a dress.”
Rose snapped the book shut. “Laugh if you like. Jane’s
never wrong. There’s a reason I gave you this book, you know. I had hoped you’d learn a thing or two from it. Maybe you should reread it. You obviously missed the point.”
Hermione was greatly amused.
Nevertheless, she tucked the book back into her box,
resolving to do as her mother advised. Perhaps her perspective of Emma since she read it at 9 would be different, and perhaps next time she gave her opinion of it to Rose, Hermione might actually discover what her mother had wanted her to find in the first place.